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Streaming! (offline for tonight)

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 28, 2011, 7:39 PM



I don't think you have heard from me in a long time, with good reason!
I am in the final year of college, and thus have a humongous project that includes over 720 drawings.

I have found that when streaming I manage to get a lot more done than I would else-wise, so please come watch if you'd like!

[link]
I'll be working on 2 scenes then moving onto painting some backgrounds.
<3

(Check back tomorrow!)


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Some Input?

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 15, 2010, 5:31 PM



Halloween has always been my favourite occasion to celebrate, it's always full of fun and free candy (even if the candy stopped flowing free years ago)
I've tried my best to do Halloween images every year since I enjoy it so much!
etc etc etc

This year I want to do something with the new Ty-demon in all of her demonic-ness making it epic and nicely themed.
I want to have it be gruesome, with a SH feel to it.
I don't want to use the traditional Halloween symbols in it.
[link]
The sad part is that my mind is not flowing well with any good ideas for what I should draw.

Some input/suggestions would be lifesaving! <3


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Happier Notes

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 7, 2010, 3:31 PM



I'd like to point out to the multiple people who thought the last journal I posted had anything, even a smidg,e to do with the idea of me quiting art, or leaving DA, to please, PLEASE! spend more time reading what something says before going into panic mode.
I know it's a common mistake, and I'm not angry or anything. It just would be nice to have what I write understood. (even if I am not the best at conveying what I mean)
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Also someone caught the Kiriban: *francis-john
I was away for the event sadly, but it's nice to see a screenshot of it ^^
She'll be getting her prize as soon as I can.
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I think ~Zukuda is also still needing commissions:


Go check her out now!~ XD


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My absence

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 26, 2010, 10:21 PM


Absence
Yes it is true that I have been avoiding DA, mostly because I haven't the will to draw the sparkle dragons most everyone expects with a violent need from me, and to which there seems to be an endless line of just completely rude people with a superiority complex who want to tell you that you are wrong and try to spend every word that comes out of their mouths to belittle you just to make themselves feel better.
I don't sugar coat my responces to save your feelings if you don't consider mine.

I'll likely not ever really leave this site, but I doubt that I will be as active as I used to be.

I want to point out that some people are assuming that because I am absent from DA that I am so butthurt that I will stop drawing because of the attitude problem DA has. This is completely untrue. Drawing is my passion, and the attitudes just makes me not want to be a part of this site!

On a better note

One of my friends is really tight on money and she needs to get commissions to cover her family!
:iconzukuda::iconzukuda::iconzukuda:
So please go help her out!

I have also been thinking of maybe doing some form of kiriban like thing for the 1 mil pv



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Crisis adverted +Anime North

Journal Entry: Thu May 27, 2010, 7:37 PM


I need someone who knows how to use Adobe Indesign stat!
Edit again: trying something else, will update if it works/not

Edit once again: IT WORKED We went to a staples basically out of town, and the guy recognized my work, and got it all done really fast, and was really nice to me (unlike the very rude 'lady' from this morning ¬_¬)

So I have succeeded in getting them printed out!
And they look fabulous!

I am curious who all will be going to AN? I'll be there at the table all weekend, so feel free to stop by and chat it up <3
:la::heart::la:
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Tomorrow I head off to go to Anime North, which I am looking forward to 110%!
Since I get to hang with Sam, Zelie, and Anne.

Zelie and I are sharing a table, and we both will be dressed up as XM characters. XD we will be sitting at the table D07 (I think)

I will be selling copies of the first issue of XM there (if the printers don't fail on me *knocks on wood*)
But the entire comic is full colour, and my wrist feels the pain of the effort put into it.


A preview image for everyone to see that it does exist, I'd upload photos of the actual book when I get them from the printers... I am sooo stressed hoping they get it done in time!

But after all of this I will be able to relax and finally get to cleaning out that to-do list~
:la:



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FAQS 2010

Journal Entry: Tue May 18, 2010, 2:29 PM




Trades: Closed
Commissions: Closed
Collabs: Maybe, depends...
Requests: Never again


Yes I know tl:dr
:iconotlplz:

How old are you?
• I was born Dec3 1985, do the calculation.

What is your favourite colour?
• Purple

How long have you been drawing?
•As long as I can remember, but if you want a landmark for when I started wanting it to be my career, I remember drawing on of my first few XM images in class, and periodically looking up at the teacher as he explained the Two Towers and how they sway in the wind, just to be notified near the end of class that they had just been hit by planes.

What mediums do you use?
•I firmly believe that a good artist can make art with any media, and don't need the expensive stuff to succeed. But I am sure you want to know the brands.
•I usually draw all of my images with pencil first.
•With traditional images I ink them with a mixture of Staedtler pigment liners, and coloured Staedtler pens. Then I lay down a layer of Copic markers as a base to which I add some pencil crayons. (I have several brands so the brand is not important here) After that I use more Copics to add more depth and use them to blend the coloured pencils. I top it all off with some white gelpen in choice places.
I am not against using paint and other random mediums along with my usual items, as long as it works out.
•With Digital I use photoshop CS2 and an intuos 6x8 wacom tablet. My favourite brush is the simple round hard brush.

Will you do a tutorial?
•Sadly I will likely never do a tutorial, mainly because I am not good at them. Plus there are several other people who have much more useful tutorials.

What are your inspirations?
• My inspirations change like the wind; something can inspire me one day, and bore me the next, just to inspire me again the next day. I mostly like music and the outdoors, but I get the most work done between 12-3am or while in class.
If you are talking about artists, I have gone through phases. I used to be enamored with anime, you likely can still see traces of it in my images. I also loved HTK, but never managed to stick with it for long. I do admit that Todd Lockwood was an inspiration to the way that I understand dragon anatomy. But actually my first real idols were ~beldolor and `Saimain back from the days of elfwood.

What do you plan to do as a career?
• I have luckily made it to the point where I am starting in my career. I worked last summer in a Video game company, doing models and concept art with a bit of animation.

What is XM?
•XM stands for Xiro Myth, which is a comic I have been working on for a long time now, as you can tell from the answer above. I named it as such due to the fact that I love the idea of how religion and myths change over time, and I wanted to play with that concept. So using Xiro as the basis of my myths, I have been able to build a plausible world.

Do you have XM posted anywhere?
•I am sorry but I don’t, I have an old version of the beginning posted, but that is outdated and I have been working on a better version. Someday I will get a proper place to post it, but I fear that it will still be a while, since I am daft in the website design area.

Feel free to burn out your eyes from the old version

I thought avian was another word for bird. Don't you know that?
• I have known it for a good while, but back when I first made them, back in an answer above, I didn’t, and thought it was a good almost angelic sounding name. In the end it works out well since there are many details about my Avians and the word avian that makes sense that the humans from the XM world would call them as such.

I am not copyrighting the word/name, I never intended to, and I wish people could understand that fact.

What are Avians then?
•They are a draconic race that lived back before the times of Xiro. One of the two original sentient species of the planet before the rifts happened allowing humans and a few other species to that world. They are highly magical and mystical. They live symbiotically with the trees they live in.

This creates a floating forest city which I sometimes call the migrating forest. Eventually they are caught into a war with the humans. This war created Xiro, and he caused the Avian’s extinction.

Can I make an Avian?
• This is the question that gets everyone’s knickers in a knot, but no. There are multiple reasons why I would not want to see everyone making an Avian.

1: They are extinct! No matter how pimped out their powers are, or how special you want them to be, if you made a character, they are dead.
•It is like wanting to make your own Titanic; we all know how it’s going to end.

2: There is a huge issue with people trying to out-do each other’s designs, and this creates very gaudy designs. This also encourages people to make Mary-sues, which is a huge pet peeve of mine.

3: I like to keep them special to me and my friends (I can’t believe how offended people get at this) I don’t have time to always draw for my friends when I want to, so them having something dear to me, is my way of saying that my friends are also dear to me.

4: I know the big reason people want one is because they are not allowed to have one, and thus they would not care about it as much as someone who actually became my friend under other pretences than the Avians.

5: It is not like I am being unreasonable, I have before given chances for people to earn one. (Note: huge epic drama contest that drove me up the wall) please remember that not everything is free, and please stop asking and demanding. Avians = friends only

I noticed the Amsk/Flytts/Undrais/Odroth, Are those restricted as well?
• No not at all, they are open to make characters with as you want. The only one that has any form of restriction on it is the Amsk, since I don’t want the pre-infected character to have been an Avian. Technically ALL of my species and races are open for people to make except for the Avians.
It would be nice if people would notice the subspecies instead of needing the ones that are restricted.
I have an entire group of species for people to make.

What are Amsk?
• They are an undead disease like dragon similar to vampires and zombies. They originated in the Avians during the Xiro event, and have spread to anything they came across that had enough body mass to infect. They come from Xiro, and his distortion of reality, and spread from there.

Can I infect my character with Amsk?
• Sure, just keep in mind that this doesn’t change their base creature.

I want to make a feathered dragon species, but you have them copyrighted.
• This is more of a statement than a question. But I get it more than often enough to include it.
I don’t claim to be the only person who can make a feathered dragon species. My species have specific physical and cultural traits that make it different from other feathered dragons. There is a very obvious line between inspiration, coincidence, and copying. The later I don’t tolerate.
:iconfacepalmplz:


Someone copied you and I don’t know that to do!
• First of all don’t flame them. There are numerous reasons it could not be a copy.
Instead note me privately with a link to the image and clearly state to me why you think it is a copy. I will then review the image and decide for myself if I feel it is a copy or not. If I seem to ignore you or not do anything, it means that I felt that the image in question was not offensive. If I find people actively flaming someone innocent again I will personally tell the flamers off.

Someone came to my page and told me that I am copying you.
• Similar to the answer above, note me. Be polite. State who said what, show the comment or copy-paste the note. I will look over the image and decide likely in your favour. I will then choose to talk to the person who claimed you were copying due to the nature of their words. Remember that some people may not be saying you are copying, or just giving you a friendly warning.

You are so horrible. You don’t allow fanart?
• Here is where the lines become grey.
Fanart is allowed, this includes drawing the Avian characters that already exist, it also includes drawing fanart of the species in the whole. On the contrary Fan characters are not allowed. Often times one tries to pass off their fan-character as fanart.
Let me clear it up some, a fan-character, has a name, has been drawn more than once, or has a character sheet.
:iconohnoesplz:

What Can I do to avoid the “wrath” of Kilara?
• Think before typing, and be polite. If you have a problem, note me.
If you leave comments on my main page saying rude things, it is not my responsibility to curb my “fans” from telling you off. So the best thing is to approach me in privately with a mild form of respect. Thusly you won’t have me angry at you. Surprisingly I am a human and I do have feelings. I also do have other shit going on in my life even if I don’t emo about it in my journal 24/7.

Have a question that I didn’t answer here?
•Please read the comments to this journal, and if there is still no answer, ask in a comment so that other people can see your answer ^^





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Pasties

Journal Entry: Fri May 7, 2010, 6:46 AM


LOL I know what you are all thinking by that title, but I am not talking about the strategically placed stickers women wear when they want to wear nothing, but also show nothing... XD

I am talking about the DA pasties, the little code that DA provided so that we could post thumbnails of like our recent favourites, or submissions.


I wish to know, since I would greatly like to update my page some more, and have a feed for my favourites. But I can't unless I can figure this out due to the fact that when you add a BG onto a widget, it covers what was on it before.
Thus is why I have been fighting with the featured deviation window as well T_T

Thanks in Advanced! :heart:



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After the Cram

Journal Entry: Mon May 3, 2010, 7:41 PM



That was a ridiculous amount of stress which was not necessary but the best thing is that I made it through it all.

Some of you might have noticed a change in my page.
Some people thought I left, which wasn't really correct, but I still got some goodbyes from some people who were worried.
I was messing around with some CSS, which you can see is working ok, though the CSS for the journal is still forign to me, so hopefully sometime soon I can get Shinlove to help me with this so it can be sextastic.

The thing that is eating my time now is the comic, which is now at page 6 (epic musics) but still going too slow to be done in time, which sucks huge time. Im still gonna try to get it done for AN.
And no, Im not going to post it here on Kilara, due to it has nothing to do with the Avians, and thats all that is really appreciated on this account. T_T




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Cram Time

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 9, 2010, 2:48 PM


End of semester Cram Time

It is nearing the end of the semester year and with that comes the flood of workload that everyone in college experiences, or should experience.
I know that my whining about it is nothing special, but right now I feel like I have essays coming out of every orifice.
Essays cause me a LOT stress because I am not good at writing them, heck I am not very good at writing what I mean properly in journals.

My personal art is on the side, I barely get to do doodles for myself, and the pages of XM are on hiatus. (which really hurts a lot, cause I have to get those done by mid may)

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Another thing which is really messing around with my being able to work is; my landlady has decided to renovate every single room of her house. Like this has been going on for a while, but it's been getting kinda overboard lately.

It started with her room, in how it was going to be renovated for her birthday over a month ago, then the tornado (known as her son) started on another bedroom, and now every room of this house is ripped up cept for mine, and it is darn hard to concentrate on essays when you are hearing loud bangs and smashes. smelling the obnoxious fumes from the paints.

Not to mention the need to fix everything not broken, the new router didn't like broadcasting the internets, so I had to get the old one back.

Finals don't mean I have a lot of time to dick around.

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What it does mean is that I am not going to sit on DA 24/7 and endlessly jab my tablet down to hand out more Llamas.
(It was a fun idea, but pushed a bit far... common fancy llama now?)

I spent almost 3 days straight of giving them out endlessly, because it was a LOT of fun, I must have given out between 300-500, and I know that is less than I have received, but I still tried apart from essays and exams, and my general suckage at writing.

But then I got a comment saying along the lines that I wasn't "doing my part" and thus pointed out I gave out 'only 96' in that new function. Now there is a small issue with that number in my mind due to I had to have given out that much before lunch on the first. I know because I brought my laptop to class, and was mashing it with handing out Llamas.

I guess what hurts the most is that after all the llama giving I did, the number it says I 'gave' was so low. And I don't have the time to change it right now due to school work.

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So yeah I am sorry if you are expecting something from me right now, but I just can't deliver. If you want to complain, please go troll someone else, K? Thanks.



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LLamas! + Llama exhcange Chat!

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 2, 2010, 11:24 AM


LLAMAS
Ok, so I love llamas!
And I would really want to be a super llama!
So give me llama badges so I can wear a cape!

EDITZ:
Apparently there is a level above super Llama, So please keep helping me in my goal!

EditZ:
Apparently at 1k (in about 500 more LLamas) I can get the white LLama
and at 2k there is the white LLama with a cape, and a golden Llama after that.

I know I will likely not get any of these, but I really wanna aim for the white Llama!
Please help!

[link] and [link] Some chats for giving and recieving Llamas for EVERYONE!

Once again EDITZ: (sorry for the spamz)
Ok so the Llama thing is still going, thus I have not lost the chance to get the albino Llama!
If you can still help I'd love it!



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Cosplay and Comic

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 18, 2010, 9:49 AM


Cosplay

As mostly I think everyone knows by now, I will be cosplaying for AN this year, and sadly I won't be going as human!female!Paido, as to I have had my mom and a few friends say that it shows too much skin, so instead I have opted to go for the Human!Drejrael costume.
I have most of the parts, and it won't be the same as the drawing per say, since there are a bunch of smaller parts to it that I have edited to be more suiting.

I am lucky to have found a nice wig which is long and will look like his hair. (after looking forever)
Now the last part I have come across is the fact of his eyes.
I want to wear vibrant purple contacts.
to give the effect of his eyes. (I am not expecting to get ones with out the pupil)

[link]
these are the best ones I have found so far, but sadly I know no info about contacts so the lingo makes little sense to me.
I know that there are supposed to be some that are more opaque than others, and some that basically meld with your existing eye colour.
I am hoping to get ones that look real-ish, but still are BRIGHT purple.

Anyone who is knowledgeable about that please help!?!

The comic

almost 2/16 pages fully drawn and coloured, and if I keep up on it, I will likely have the first issue of XM done and ready for the main convention I go to, Anime North. I am just working on concepts for the logo and the cover of the first issue, since I have a large amount properly storyboarded now. Hopefully I will get it all done by then, specially with the essays due soon, gads I hate essays.

Will I post it here when it is done?
•Likely not on this account. I do want to make a proper site for it eventually.

Will it be for sale online?
•I dunno, haven't gotten that far yet.

Can I has a copy for free?
•Sure, show up at AN cosplayed as one of the characters, and I'll totally spam you with free prints and a copy of it <3 (maybe even a free sketch)
•Honestly I have a bunch of people cosplaying as some of the characters already, I wonder if I can get a whole party!~ ^^

Thank you~



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Minor disterbances

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 19, 2010, 8:47 PM


Clubs, Ads, and Such

I notice that Clubs are a wonderful thing that have gained recent popularity and everyone has one. But this poses a small problem.
As a lot of 'popular' artists likely have been experiencing, I have been getting a lot of club invites.
I mean no disrespect to the clubs when I decline them, but I totally don't have the time to be active or participate in as many clubs as I get invites, and I feel it would be not very useful to a club if I join and do nothing.

So I do want to ask for you guys not to invite me, or at least don't feel insulted when I don't join your groups.

Though I will still accept my deviations being invited into groups. ^_^

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I should also bring up something else that has been happening a lot lately.
I have been getting a lot of notes and comments saying things like:

-Come draw for our comic, it will be great exposure for you, it involves dogs and magic
-I am starting up a company, work for us. We'll pay you if we (ever) make money...(Maybe)
-I am doing commissions, you should commission me, and tell all your friends!
-I need you to do 2 full-colour commissions a week, give me the PSD, and I'll pay you $20 each
-etc...
(these are base examples, but similar enough to give the point. Some I wonder if they even look at my gallery... some I have gotten the same note like 3 times)

Please don't do this, its painful to see how much people expect me to do for as little as they offer. All it succeeds in doing is making me depressed in knowing that you think I am gullible.

I take commissions as I need the money ATM, for I am a full-time college student, and most of my time is spent attending classes, and writing essays (ewwwww)
Even if I knew I wasn't gonna get scammed, I simply don't have the time to be committed to a company during school time. Sorry T_T

PS: On my secret account I have noticed the ads on DA cause Viruses (AKA if you arn't subscribed)
WTF?
Please DA choose your ad customers a little more carefully Thanks!
(this is not from clicking on adds, this is from just browsing DA. Ad the ad loads onto the page with the image, it also loads a virus that makes my Anti virus program close the page)

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On a positive note:
[link] Is a ridiculously cute game!
It's 'hard' but can be done

Also Xander is doing great, active and affectionate. Thank you~

PPS:
WTF, I am getting sick of my art being compared to FF, WoW, and Avatar. These people need to grow up and learn that not everything is from their fandoms.



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Help me save Xander! EDITZ!

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 3, 2010, 11:30 PM


Update!

Monday was the day that she went under the knife, and it was the most stressful time I have had in forever!
The night before I didn't go to sleep at all, and when it was time to drop her off, both me and my mom were deep in tears.
8:00 am, The ladies at the office were very nice! They told us how exactly things would be done, and said they'd call if there were any complications.
So we went home, and 3 times the phone rang, threw our hearts in a knot, but it was Kory, or John calling to see what was up.

1:00 pm, We called in and got told what happened.
SHE IS OK
She grabbed a hold of that 25% chance of survival, and would not let go!

5:30pm, We picked her up, and cried all of the way, I am soo happy she made it! It looks like the vet was a very good vet, since we could barely see the incision, and she seems soo much more happier now!
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(if you look at the summy size compared to the image below, you can really see the swelling, the vet said it was swollen to the size of a dog's, and that is after we got most of it to drain out)

I like to believe that she could feel the positive energy from everyone wanting her to live!
So Thank you sooo very much!
Thank you for commissioning and donating <333

I even got a super sweet support art!


I still had to dip into my rent money, but hopefully the auction will cover it! And I also have my root cannal in a week, which I mistakenly thought was today, so I am a bit relieved there. Gads everything will be tight.
(also a bit worried cause my meds are almost out = pain)
[link] There is less than 3 days left on it!

I will also be posting the sketche commissions in groups of 3. (and sending full size to everyone separately) If that's ok with you?

I need your help!

I wish my life could give me a small break.
It likes to pile things on top of me all at once, which proves to me once again: bad things come in 3.

This past Tuesday I woke up to my lateral incisor to the right hand side throbbing in extreme pain.

I thought it was ricochet from the molar in the back of my mouth that is decaying while still under skin. But as the day went on it became clear that it was that tooth and not ricochet. Wednesday I went in for an emergency evaluation at the dentist whom told me it was abscessed, and that I needed to get a root canal. According to my mom who used to work in the field, root canals cost at least $300 for that tooth. This does not include the many other things he found wrong with my teeth, and the future needed extraction of the previously mentioned molar. So I know that will put me more in the hole by the end of this semester.


This is nothing compared to the next thing that sprung up on me.
Well, not really sprung, but it’s my responsibility to take care of it, since my mom doesn’t have a job, and thus simply does not have money to cover it. Xander, my lovely tiny female cat has always had a small problem. She has a heart murmur and thus has always had high risk to do with any form of surgery that required anesthesia. Basically if she is put under for surgery there is about a 50% chance she would not wake up.
Thus we never got her fixed. She had gotten a pyrometriosis otherwise known as a uterus infection about mid December.
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We took her to the vet and got some antibiotics and other medicines to get it to go away, and it started to work, but sadly the infection got worse.
Now her uterus needs to be removed.

This is normally a high risk operation because of the infection, but add on top the fact of her heart murmur, it becomes extremely risky. The other option is to let the infection go as it is and take the risk of it bursting inside her, which would cause a slow and painful death.

I know there is little chance at her surviving either way, but I know what my choice is, I will do everything in my power to save her.

I remember when we got her from a garage, and how I was the first person to hold her, I held her all of the way home. I remember when she first learnt that she could jump and thus leaped like a rabbit everywhere.

I marvel at how slim and sleek she is, how gracefully she holds her tail and how it curls in joy when you pet her. How she uses her paws to lift her tail up to her mouth so she can groom it. I hurt when I look at her now, seeing her swollen tummy and knowing what is to come.

She is only 6 years old, and will always look like a kitten due to her small size. She is my family, for I am an only child, and I want to do as much as I can to save her!

The problem is that this operation will cost $500+ and I do not have the ability to take that out of my budget for this year. I am very tight as it is.

I am now planning on ways to earn some money so that I can cover these problems.
:star:I will be taking 10 sketch commissions for $15 (if you want more in the commission, say so, and I'll discuss it, I just don't have time for many full colour commissions)
:star:And I am auctioning a full colour image with a painted background HERE

1:=Shinerai -Ardrius -paid
2:=Shinerai -Kiro -paid
3:~Loki-Atsuka -corona -paid
4:~Bristlefurr -loney -paid
5:~LadyKervein -Octultus -paid
6:~dragonfiend -Sheesta -paid
7:~machine-messiah -lachesis -paid
8:*Foxchibi ???
9:*beastofoblivion ??? -paid
10:=D-oubleHelix -Vex -paid

Suggestions on other things to get enough to cover the fees would be greatly appreciated!
And if you can spare a prayer or a wish of good health for Xander, it would be wonderful, for I know the positive energy helps.
<3
Thank you~
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PS…I am not looking forward to the 3rd bad thing to come...



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Livestream and Fanclub

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 19, 2010, 4:33 PM


Fanclub?
Ok, so a day or two ago a very nice person made a fanclub for me, which is something un-expected for me.
I find it very flattering to have one, and I think that people can benefit from more positive energy like this! <3
#KilaraFans
On a note, if you want to join, feel free to, but if you don't like me, please keep your dislike and such away from her. It is me you don't like, not the owner of the club. Thank you ^^
Livestream

I caved and got a livestream, and thought that I'd let you guys know that I am streaming right now. X3
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I'm online right now, but I'll update this to say when I am no longer online.
I hope to see you there!~

ONLINE Again! Offline Thanks for coming!



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On a need to know basis

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 8, 2010, 6:50 PM


On a need to know basis

It is seeming more and more lately that less people are bothering to read my faqs.
This makes me feel sad because then I have to answer their either repetitive, or ridiculously mean questions that are only asked out of ignorance or laziness.

But I digress that this might not be all of their fault because the fact that although my faqs are as clear as I can make them, I have not updated it in a while.

So here is where I want some help.

Ask me some questions in this journal, remember to read all of the previous comments on this journal to see if your question was asked before or not. Feel free to ask more than one question as well. ^^

I need this to see what is mainly uncovered now, and what is more needed to be known.
I am also planning on making the FAQs into an image, so hopefully more people will see it. XD

I do ask you to remember that I am also human, and that leaving rude and inconsiderate comments will not be answered in a polite manner and I will not be held responsible for what people may say to you if you do.



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Dear Santa + Birthday +UPDATE

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 7, 2009, 4:43 PM


Birthday wants for bashing heads in

Well it is December again, and that makes me excited for my b-day. 2 days away! Twas on the 3rd

Ive already had a bit of fun back home last weekend, where my mom got me an Xbox360.
Which also made me pissed cause it came with the wrong cord.

See if you can spot the difference.

At first glance it looks like it fits, but it doesn't.

So when we took it back to where we bought it, they refused to exchange it. On the claim that the 360 doesn't have the same serial number as is on it's box. There was also supposed to have a seal on the box. which it didn't.
This leads me to believe that either someone else returned it prior and didn't return the , or one of their employers did a swap to escape a red ring of death or something.
I think what pisses me off the most, is that they treated us as if we were trying something fishy.

On a positive note:
I am hoping that this Thursday I can have a cake night with my friends here at college.

Edit:

So the birthday was pretty good.
My landlady bought me cake since I couldn't do cake night with my friends, and we had a celebration with my roomates. It was a lot of fun and all.
I also got a lot of wonderful gifts!
From :iconenaxn: <3
From :iconsnowkatt101: and :iconshinerai: <3
From :iconhaanpere: <3
From :iconkyriadori: <3
From :icond-oublehelix: <3
From :iconexuitirteiss: <3
From :iconpepitojr: <3
From :iconadelein13: <3
:thumb145685090: From :icontigermond: <3

Thank you everyone for wishing me a happy birthday!
and if I missed yours, please let me know <3

The sad part is the following weekend, is that my mom failed to adopt the dog she really wanted. All because they people adopting decided that the dog NEEDS another dog in the household. (even when the description says the dog likes cats more)
On top of that, one of my close friends from home broke their laptop, and when they called into HP to get it repaired under the warantee, they find out that The source had sold their cereal number to someone else over 2 years ago. Thus meaning the money my friend paid, is worth moot.
The third kick in the ass is that the cord that Microsoft decided to send to me is also the wrong cord. more so than the other one. This one is one of those old fashioned cords, and not the big square that is required for the xbox360. And I swear I will rip someone a new one if the xbox I have gets the Rrod, because being that 1/1000 pisses me off enough, I don't also need to be the 1/6 as well.
*is stressed*
Now if all of this crap could have waited till after this week it would have been nice, specially since all my classes decided that their assignments will be due the 2nd last week instead of the last week. So I am piled in essays that I suck at along with exams, presentations, and a portfolio.
And yes I am working on the essays as I type this as well, I just needed to rant. Let me rant in peace!
/Edit

Dear Secret Santa

This year I have been a good girl, and would greatly like it if I received an image of my characters from my story called Xiro Myth.
Drej's Temporary reference
The full reference sheets are linked in the descriptions of each character.
Most of those characters I would like to see Kilara, Drej, or Ty drawn. But if she is too difficult, then feel free to draw any of the other characters.

I only ask that you keep the theme to be not 'modern' holiday.
IE no Christmas trees, with presents, and Santas with their reindeer.



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Sketch Trades! (full)

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 28, 2009, 10:11 PM


Sketch trades

I have wanted to do this for a while now but lacked the time to do so before.  But now that I have my reading week, I want to get some motivation going once again.

I am opening up a total of 5 sketch trades with anyone who wants to.
This is NOT a first come first serve kind of thing.
I will choose who I will trade with based on who looks interesting. :}

*Remember that these will be sketch trades, meaning they will be sketches, I will only add colour/etc if I feel like it or like the image enough, or if you specifically say in the comment that you will colour yours.

• Please leave a comment on this journal if you wish to trade. ^^
In your comment please leave a link to the character you would like me to draw, and what you would prefer to draw. (human, dragon, etc)
Also let me know if you want it Halloween themed or not. XD

• If I choose to trade with you I will respond to your comment in this journal.
If you are not chosen, please don’t take offence, I choose based on what I feel would be the most fun to draw, and what would most likely get done.
(Everything else I have to do is either started, finshed, or is awaiting payment. This is so I can build up more momentum to get a large chunk done on XM.)

Ok, so I couldn't help but choose 10 in total, since there were so many comments of people who wanted to.

I will have to take photos of the images as I finish them, since my mom's scanner is DED... well technically it's vista's bullshit.
1:icondraiad:
2:iconchutkat:
3:iconkoishii-kitty: :thumb141847641:
4:iconsythgara:
5:iconmanamaraya:
6:iconvanillakitsune:
7:iconzilowar:
8:iconnahamut:
9:iconexileden:
10:iconardanae:

(I'll be done my parts soon as well, then I can post them all at once)

I DO NOT want to see complaining about who I chose, for I am human, and can't choose all 250 people. Also I chose twice as many as I first planned to due to the responce.
If I plow through these quickly I might do some more.



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RIP Common Sense

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 13, 2009, 6:56 PM


In memory of Common Sense

Reposted from ~T-Weaver due to the fact that I think more people should read this and really think about it
I believe that this is so true, and it is getting worse.


Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, "Common Sense," who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:



- knowing when to come in out of the rain;

- the early bird gets the worm;

- life isn't always fair; and

- maybe it was my fault.



Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge).


His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.


Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.


It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student, but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.


Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses and criminals received better treatment than their victims.


Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.


Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, "Truth" and "Trust," by his wife, "Discretion," by his daughter, "Responsibility," and by his son, "Reason."


He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers – "I Know My Rights," "I Want It Now," "Someone Else Is To Blame," and "I'm A Victim."


Not many attended his funeral, because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.
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I don't post journals often enough

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 2, 2009, 8:57 PM


Where has the sleep gone?

For a little more then a week now I have been having a huge issue with being able to fall asleep. This is really not a good thing since I do have morning classes that require me to be awake in.
I know it is not that serious yet, but I want to nip it in the bud.

The lack of sleep is more then likely caused by stress, I just can't seem to locate the origin of what might be stressing me out.

All I can really think of to solve this problem is to eat really hearty foods like potatoes, lettuce, and garlic, (Things out of the garden) to try to fix it. And I don't want to use any form of pills.

Commissions? what?

"But you haven't finished what you owe me!?!"

Well right now mine are still not open, I posted this because I thought it would be nice to inform of some people who are needing commissions.

First of all there is :iconowlheart: whom I've already had the pleasure of commissioning these two pieces from her.

I suggest you go to her gallery and check her out, then note her for a commission.
She is quick and does good work! <3

Next there is :iconredpennant: A good friend of mine from school whom I am surprised doesn't get commissioned as much.

And :iconsorse: who is also a school friend who lives with ~redpennant
:thumb124274946:
Both are tones of fun to be around, and they both draw very well
(Sorse is complaining that he doesn't have anything to show off in his gallery, I beg to differ)

Remember to note them with inquiries!

~~~~~~~~~~
Now I did put a shoutboard on my main page for me to pimp some people, tho I doubt that many people have seen it.
Please let me know if you noticed it, or if it just blends in?



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Niagara Falls!

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 13, 2009, 9:44 AM


As a lot of you likely know, I am supposed to be going to the Canadian Dev meet at Niagara falls today....

And here I am!

I'll be walking down to the meeting spot in about an hour or so
untill then I'll be draining the battery on this laptop, and playing the new-ish pokemon game.

I hope to see you guys there!
~Kilara

If you need more info, look at `Exileden's journal



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